Saturday, December 18, 2021

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 42 - Christmas 2021

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 42


Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


Hello my loves,


It is just a week before Christmas 2021. I think about you every day. I cannot make myself believe that this will be the first Christmas since your births that you will not be getting Christmas gifts from Pawpaw. I wrote to your asking your parents what you would like for Christmas but they refused to reply to me. Please know that I did not abandon you or forget you at Christmas or any other time. I was simply banned from your lives because my husband and I are gay and we have different political beliefs than your parents. I cannot describe how it has broken my heart to lose my family.


You will probably be adults if you ever find my messages to you. If I am still alive, I hope that you will find me. If I am not alive, please know in your hearts that you were loved without measure by Pawpaw. I did not abandon you.


I love you all, Connor, Bryson and Archer.


Pawpaw









































I create these Messages To My Grandsons because I want you to know your Pawpaw as you did when you were little children. I want you to know that I did not abandon you. I spent at least a week every month with you until your parents ended our relationship.

 

I would never leave you, my loves.

 

                Pawpaw


Sunday, November 21, 2021

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 41 - Pawpaw in a biker bar

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 41

Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


As a singer/songwriter, I have performed in many different and sometimes odd venues from a one-room schoolhouse to churches to schools to theaters to television to radio to coffehouses to restaurants to festivals and more.

One of the zaniest happened in Akron, Ohio. I was approached by a biker wearing his club leather and colors. He had long hair and a long beard and huge arm muscles. He explained that he was a club member and he owned a biker bar. BUT, he had recently come to follow God and had turned his biker bar into a biker coffehouse. No more alcohol! He asked me to come sing in his biker no-alcohol bar. I did!

Singing Jesus-music to a bunch of bikers deprived of alcohol turned out to be a blast. It probably helped that I looked like them at the time. Step outside your comfort zone. It may be a blast! Hugs, Pawpaw




Thursday, November 4, 2021

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 40 - Pawpaw's 27th surgery

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 40


Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


Today is November 4, 2021. Today started at 8:10 a.m. with my 27th surgery. This one was on my right knee. It is called a Nerve Ablation. The surgeon goes into my knee in three spots and uses a laser to burn the nerves to death so I won't have pain for several months.


It has been an especially difficult day because I have been missing you and thinking about you. I looked through photos of you that I have here. At one point, I even kissed my phone looking at a photo of you. My heart is broken. 



Dear Archer, I wish that I had been allowed to know you, hold you and spend time with you. Even from afar, I still loved and love you.


Pawpaw


Friday, October 22, 2021

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 39 - Still missing you

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 39


Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


Dearest boys,


It is October 22, 2021. In the past several weeks, I have reached out to your parents again trying to heal our family.


I sent you boys gifts by mail. For Connor and Bryson, I sent a set of foam rockets that are launched by stepping on a foot pad. For Archer, I sent a wind-up blue fish that swims in the bathtub.


I sent your Mom a a text message. She didn't reply.


I sent your Dad a text message. He didn't reply.


I sent emails to your Mom and Dad. They didn't reply.


I am so sorry that we are no longer a family. I miss you and love you all.


Hugs,


Pawpaw





Saturday, September 25, 2021

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 38 - Pawpaw video You think you have time

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 38


Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


You Think You Have Time by Steven Skelley



PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 37 - Pawpaw video When I look at a tree

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 37

Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


When I Look At A Tree by Steven Skelley



PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 36 - Pawpaw video Treasures of yesteryear

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 36

Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


Enjoy my video of Treasures Of Yesteryear by Steven Skelley




Friday, September 10, 2021

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 35 - LGBTQ Pride

PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 35


Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!


Why I Celebrate LGBTQ Pride by Steven Skelley


I can trace my maternal family line back to 1720 when Abraham McWilliams was born. He sailed to the New World, settled in Pennsylvania and his son Samuel fought in the Lancaster County Militia for American freedom. I am proud of that history.


Just as I have a place in the history of my genealogical family, I am also a part of another family. I have a place in the history of the homosexual family. Unfortunately, unlike my genealogical history that can be easily traced, the accomplishments of my homosexual brothers and sisters have been erased.


Cave drawings and art from the Mesolithic period in on Sicily, Bethlehem, Zimbabwe, Czech Republic, Egypt and more depict LGBTQ members of society.


Millions of people throughout human history have been born like me. Some societies valued my family. Most societies shunned, imprisoned, castrated, tortured or killed us. This is why I celebrate LGBTQ Pride.


What do we have to be proud of, you ask?


Three hundred years before Christ, the Sacred Band of Thebes is documented. The Sacred Band was an elite fighting force made up of 150 gay couples. They were so fierce, though outnumbered, they defeated the mighty Spartans. They finally fell to Philip of Macedonia and his son Alexander the Great.


Native American / Indigenous communities welcomed and honored LGBTQ people for centuries before conquering Europeans forced bigotry and religious persecution upon them. These Two Spirit people were considered valuable assets who were able to view both the male and female perspective.


Alan Turing is considered the father of computer science. An Officer of the Most Excellent Order of the British Empire for his Enigma code-breaking work in WWII which saved hundreds of thousands of Allied soldiers’ lives, he was convicted of homosexuality and chemically castrated. He then killed himself.


Harvey Milk was a civil rights leader who became one of the first openly-gay elected officials in the United States. He was assassinated.


There aren’t enough pages available to share all the history of my LGBTQ family that has been erased.


Even though my LGBTQ family has been sharing this planet with heterosexuals since the beginning of time, prevailing religions have been victorious in suppressing us, imprisoning us and killing us for being born the way we are.


We barely won the right to marry in 2015 but in most states, we can still be legally fired from our jobs or denied housing by heterosexuals for no reason other than we are LGBTQ. In many countries, we are still tortured, imprisoned and murdered.


For me, LGBTQ Pride events give me the chance to remember my family, to take my place proudly in the history of our shared world and to stand up to say we will never again allow anyone to make us second class, shunned, imprisoned, castrated, tortured or killed again.


I am an American. I am Gay. I am a Naturist. I am proud to be all three.


Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!

Pawpaw loves Archer!

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 34 - You think you have time


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 

Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, make the most of every minute because we never know how many we have left.

Love you forever,

Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 33 - Who can see me


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS

 Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, love is more than a sweet feeling.

Love you forever,

Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 32 - When I look at a tree


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 

Pawpaw loves Connor!

Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, nature has amazing lessons to teach us if we'll take the time to look and listen.

Love you forever,

Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 31 - Treasures of yesteryear


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 

Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, I wish that I had spent more time listening to life stories of older people in my life. In their stories are treasures of yesteryear. I hope you search for them and treasure them.

Love you forever,

Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 30 - The soul of an eel


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS

Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, trust your heart You'll know whe someone cannot be trusted.

Love you forever,

Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 29 - The Mirror me


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 

Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, For decades of my life I looked in the mirror and saw the real me who wanted to be set free. You see, I had created a fake me that would fit in with the people around me. Finally, I set the mirror me free.

Love you forever,

Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 28 - The Dash


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 

Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

My loves, we each are given only a small amount of time on this planet. Make the most of your time. Be you!

Love you forever,
Pawpaw

PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 27 - Standing in line


PAWPAW'S  MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS

Pawpaw loves Connor!
Pawpaw loves Bryson!
Pawpaw loves Archer!

The human journey is universal. We all begin and end. Our paths may be different. Our colors may be different. Our luck may be different. Even so, we will all have a beginning and then take our place in the line marching toward our end. It is the way of nature. So, I sit here today making this rhyme to remind you to make the most of your time standing in line – Steven Skelley


Pawpaw loves Connor, Bryson and Archer!




PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 96 - COMMON SCENTS video and song

 PAWPAW'S MESSAGES TO MY GRANDSONS 96 - COMMON SCENTS video and song Pawpaw loves Connor, Bryson and Archer forever! It is January 2025....